Change of Heart

LeVar “Var” Lawrence

Why couldn’t God just ease my pain and let me die?

Have people at my funeral with tears in their eyes

Screaming out why

Why couldn’t he just open up the gates and let me in

I would’ve promised not to sin

I’m lying

I’d be up there passing around cups of gin

Asking the angels can I put just the tip in

Be up there having parties every night

Taking bets on who’s gonna win the fight

I’d have God looking at me shaking his head

While I’m laying with two of his angels in bed

Boy, would I have the time of my life?

But then I’d start thinking about how I left my kids and my wife

Now I’m praying to God that he saves my life

So I can be around to watch my kids grow

And teach my sons things about the streets that they don’t know

To make sure that my daughters don’t end up with the wrong man

Let them know what they’re worth and that they need a ring on their hand

Well, remember me God? 

The one that got shot in the Head?

I’ve changed my mind 

Because what use am I to my kids if I was dead